things i have written, philosophies i identify with, and things you should know.
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and i don’t really know why
my heart pumps out hemoglobin
twice as fast
thrice as fast
in accordance with each time
my calculus professor says
my name in passing:
damn
i’m a broken formula
i have asymptotes in my hands and
i can’t catch the
slippery logarithms
who buzz around my fingers
though i swat at them like bees,
and my head is full of vectors
going in directions
that don’t exist
and sir,
i cant remember
how to use the dot product
to solve them,
i don’t know
how to breathe with
i can’t breathe with
these limits in my throat now
because i’ve swallowed all the
formulas
and
i feel
my heart swelling
with the weight (with the mass)
of so many theorems
but i don’t even know how
heavy they are
because whether in newtons
or kilograms
they shrink infinitely,
dissolving in acid:
within me
i will soon destroy them
and sir,
how do i isolate x
when the axis is dotted down my spine
with freckles
and the y component
hides beneath my ribs?
she, a part of me
is so good at isolation
that she withholds it from
poor x
and digs even deeper into my skin
sir,
i exist on the R3 plane
but you see through
me like i’m 2 dimensional:
you have studied
functions and vectors
for years
and despite this i remember
you told me once
that pythagoras gave me the
wrong
dimensions
and pascal
left no room for
me on his triangle
i am error code 2 on your calculator
i am undefined
nobody wrote Q.E.D.
after solving me
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